I saw the girl of my dreams
我见到了梦中的女孩
several steps ahead in my game
在我的游戏里领先几步
her plastic visage
她塑料般的面容
her obsidian gaze piercing
她黑曜石的眼睛在凝视
through the shallowness
刺穿我透明皮肤
of my see-through skin
的浅薄
I touched her reflection
我触碰她的倒影
on a gleaming pane
在一扇闪亮的窗格
her shadow inflated and faded
她的身影膨胀又消退
into the icy flare on my fingers
在我指尖冰冷的反光
ghost of my cyclical inquisitions
是我环形疑问的幽灵
Lingering amidst an ocean
徜徉在一座
of malevolent blossoms
恶之花的海洋
eyes attached to each petal
双目紧贴着每一片花瓣
with a twisted kind of affection
带着一种扭曲的爱意
scalding as the centre of the sun
如同太阳之心那般炙热
Bearing fruits of cursed spirit
承载着被诅咒灵魂的果实
stashing subversive seedlings
隐藏着颠覆性的种子
several inches below the surface
只埋在冷漠的表面
of indifference
几英寸下
Still waiting for the grand awakening
仍在等待那宏大的觉醒
veiled under solemn hibernation
隐忍在庄严的冬眠
irrigating buds of endless agony
灌溉着无尽痛苦的花苞
with the explosive momentum
用那淌在她血液里
running through her veins
爆炸性的动力
One day
终有一天
she might rise
她或许会脱离
from excessive despair
过剩的绝望
she might drain
她或许会干涸
cold and stiff in the rain
在雨中变得冷而僵硬
not feeling any pain
感受不到任何痛苦
She said,
她说
“You can’t kill it
“你不能杀死它
You must feel it
你必须感受它
You will heal it”
你将会治愈它。”
Yunzhi Pan 